BOOLEAN KNIFE: Astrid and the Killer Penguin

01. Antarctica
02. Fifty North
03. The Visitor

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01. Antarctica

she palms a star map
tougher than the land
touching where blue meets white
tame the flipper man

ten feet tall by sea
razor tooth nightmare
strayed from its rookery
bloodied empire bare

at the bottom of the world you can’t stop looking down
she team carbon squeeze follows the prints left in the ground

he hides under covers
under the stars
he hides under tables
hides out in the bars

she’ll smoke him out with stories
she’ll smoke him out with a gun
she’ll smoke him out with treasure
she’ll smoke him out with love

at the bottom of the world you can’t stop looking down
she team carbon squeeze follows the prints in frozen ground

02. Fifty North

under the sidewalk
the water mains burst
gushing emoticons in reverse

and it’s a bullfight- outright
for circuitry new
be it by fair fight or not quite
it’s all I can do

can’t stop the pictures in my head
diffuse the bomb ticking beneath my bed

solder the lines
my eyes are burning bright
catch the fifty north
toward the light

and it’s a bullfight- outright
for circuitry new
be it by fair fight or not quite
I’m pushing it through

can’t stop the pictures in my head
diffuse the bomb ticking beneath my bed
need to rewire the pathways Astrid said
now that the bastard bird is dead

can’t stop the pictures in my head
can’t stop the pictures in my head

03. The Visitor

what a funny planet
Astrid pokes over her root beer float

is that the way you have it?
sad old folks
that’s not the way we left it

turn away for a sec- well that’s it
beg a second chance- enhance it
run the routine through
you finish what you do

turn away for a sec- well that’s it
beg a second chance- enhance it
is all that that can do
run your old program through?

what a funny planet
Astrid pokes
and before she can laugh
she’s got me on the ropes

can’t say it doesn’t matter
eternal mope
that’s not for lack of ladders

look at me for a sec- and face it
here’s your second chance- embrace it
run a routine through
clean your memory new

look at me for a sec- and face it
here’s your second chance- embrace it
believe in what you do
run your new program through

darker dreams and penguin bites
rocked your whole world into night
like a bad thumbdrive gave you a ride
split you in two
boolean knife

darker dreams and penguin bites
rocked your whole world into night
like a bad thumbdrive gave you a ride
split you in two
boolean knife

Accidents and Melodies [2015]

01. Ampersands
02. Dark Kind of Guy
03. In A Town
04. Only God Can Hear You Sing
05. Teeth But Didn’t Bite
06. Lake Effect
07. Accidents and Melodies

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01. Ampersands

I got a brand new watch
simple avant-garde
I got it with my Amazon gift card

I got a brand new watch
tells me when it’s now
I trust and the signals show me how

I got a brand new watch
every glance it is today
teaches me there is no other way

sweeping second hand
silver with a leather band
connect to the fantastic
dancing with the ampersands

I got a brand new watch
now I’m in a clockwise play
no language but still so much to say

I got a brand new watch
and I feel I’m in my prime
all the while the world’s just keeping time

sweeping second hand
silver with a leather band
connect to the fantastic
dancing with the ampersands

and when she’s on her side
it’s like the flag of a brand new world or something
and now she’s hitting stride
it’s like the flag of a brand new world
i paid for it with my old life
i paid for it with my old life

sweeping second hand
silver with a leather band
connect to the fantastic
dancing with the ampersands

02. Dark Kind of Guy

they say in the valley it don’t rain a lot
i’m standing in a puddle it’s all gone to pot
I just shake my head and sigh
I’m just a dark kind of guy

could not be more plain to see
the man’s got it out for me
all the tarot cards agree
my cups are half empty

have a stout and pout about the glory days
I’m getting older and more set in my ways
it’s clear that life has passed me by
I’m just a dark kind of guy

could not be more plain to see
the man’s got it out for me
all the tarot cards agree
my cups are half empty

could not be more plain to see
the man’s got it out for me
forty tickets numbers scream
I lost the lottery

city nights and bar fights
I’ll get you back when I’m able
shouldn’t be a problem now
I get paid under the table

trigger mites and gaslights
I’m on the edge of ruin
we should totally hang out
how is your sister doin?
how is your sister doin?

could not be more plain to see
the man’s got it out for me
all the tarot cards agree
my cups are half empty

could not be more plain to see
the man’s got it out for me
forty tickets numbers scream
I lost the lottery

saxophone: Tim Koelling

03. In A Town

in a town there’s everything you wanted
in a town there’s everything you need
in a town where everything is easy
you are bound to put yourself at ease

fly around the world
have a million girls
the whole world is perfect
the whole world is pearls

and then you start to cry
the sun goes down
on its own
no-one can ask you why
the sky goes dark
all alone

in a town exactly what you asked for
in a town with everything you’ve dreamed
they all know exactly what you’re good for
they all know exactly what you what mean

i remember dreams
point of pride with me
i remember you
don’t you remember me?

and then you start to cry
the sun goes down
on its own
no-one to ask you why
the sky goes dark
all alone

two sticks and a jungle blanket
you do what you know
phosphor dots and a beat up samsung
asleep in the glow

two nights and three hard bounces
you do what you know
nothing to the ones and zeroes
you catch and you throw

even though you think you’re stupid
even though you’ve always known
all the gold in the kingdom
won’t bring you home

04. Only God Can Hear You Sing

first in class and promise
she swapped her story for my sandwich
inside the manic palace
at 26th and California

never left the southside
in orange she’ll ever be
laughing chandelier lights
only she can see

only god can hear you sing
when you survive on warmth of trespassing
spend the weekend shivering
cause there’s no more space at ministry
only god can hear you sing

after thirty sleeps in jellotown
something with a knife went down
cleopatra’s drawing circles
on her bloody gown

by the time CO comes around
she’s made her peace with lost and found
sarah’s floating fixtures
while she’s lying on the ground

only god can hear you sing
when your survive on tricks and shoplifting
spend the weekend on your knees
because you just don’t have the tools you need
only god can hear you sing

the only hope to be found
is at the clinic Emanuel tore down
pick em up, move em around
the only salvation to be found
was at the clinic Emanuel shut down
pick pick em up, move em around

only god can hear you sing
when you survive on warmth of trespassing
spend the weekend shivering
because there’s no more space at ministry
only god can hear you sing

05. Teeth But Didn’t Bite

i know you
shadows in alliance
lapping me wherever I row

i’m looking backwards
like a nation without science
attacking at the impetus of growth

like I said I know you
and you’re just a trick of light
promising to kill whatever’s right
mistakes that I can see
tiger circles waggin’ me
always showing teeth but didn’t bite
always showing teeth but didn’t bite

and how you knew me
pinched by a four-point mark
in an empty airport after dark

philosophy sans reason
speeds along an arc
like a brand new car that you can’t park

like I said I know you
and you’re just a trick of light
promising to kill whatever’s right
mistakes that I can see
thinking the tv’s after me
always showing teeth but didn’t bite
always showing teeth but didn’t bite

something is died in me
and venus is born
shell split where my heart was torn
now the future mourns

but like I said I know you
and you’re just a trick of light
promising to kill whatever’s right
mistakes that I can see
tiger circles waggin’ me

always showing teeth but didn’t bite
always showing teeth but didn’t bite
always showing teeth but didn’t bite

06. Lake Effect

late wake- the moon’s kind
take the ramp to lake shore drive
i remember a time when this was all mine
i remember a time when this was all mine

past the zoo
i feel tight
but can’t remember a thing from last night
somewhere i crossed a line
somewhere i crossed a line

have you ever believed in something
that you just can’t feel
that you just can’t feel
ever want to be free of something
afraid it might be real
afraid it might be real

I’m in trouble- I lost time
and they like me for the crime
gotta spend a few days outta sight

pot stickers
pad thai
a few clues for me to try
to assemble the night
and make it right
to reassemble the night
and make it all right

have you ever believed in something
that you just can’t feel
you just can’t feel
ever want to be free of something
afraid it might be real
afraid it might be real

pageantry rolls over the crying time
the whiskey flows making the perfect clime
late at night
late at night

have you ever believed in something
that you just can’t feel
that you just can’t feel
ever want to be free of something
afraid it might be real
afraid it might be real

07. Accidents and Melodies

early in the season
think of reason as black or white
but as time goes it get hard
to tell the difference tween wrong and right

any time you’re needin’
any time you’re not quite right
don’t get down that god plays dice
cause they’re loaded with light

accidents and melodies
look pretty much the same to me
accidents and melodies
look pretty much the same

chance a revolution
not required but may as well
deck yourself out in sunrise tones
tell the old guard to go to hell

sing a new tomorrow
maybe a song of kerosene
send me a letter with dots and lines
celebrate the brand new scene

accidents and melodies
look pretty much the same to me
accidents and melodies
look pretty much the same

something cross your shoulder
shot over the bow
western spring is in the air right now…

Kid Ghosts [2012]

01. Kid Ghosts
02. Curse of my Desire
03. Quiet Whales
04. Digging Me Up
05. Wonder
06. Quiet Whales [reprise]

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01. Kid Ghosts

drive another mile
distance over pain
doesn’t it bug you the suburbs are all the same?
birds sit on the powerlines whistling a dirge
in the name of all the babies born after the curve

kid ghosts are coming down tonight tearin up the scene
i pick it up on citywide ridin on the breeze
kid ghosts are coming down tonight making out with dream
and i’m reading five by nine

another year goes by speeding over shame
try to make a living in the simple way
the renaissance generation basking in a comet shower
got blindsided by a waxing moon at a million miles an hour

kid ghosts are coming down tonight tearin up the scene
i pick it up on citywide ridin on the breeze
kid ghosts are coming down tonight making out with dream
and i’m reading five by nine

i can’t help but believe
that somewhere in between
the ‘Bucks and the Borders might be the real thing
i’m kinda forced to believe that somewhere in between
the ‘Bucks and the Borders might be the real thing

02. Curse of my Desire

predawn
pulling songs from a shell
drawing blood from a five-star bar belle
weighing in pounds two wrongs that just may be right
smoothin it out under moonlight

all night the seatbelts whip in the wind
clutching a dream through an outright tailspin
kidnap my love my serial pretty
then drag her through the fast lane to projection city

you take me in with simple eyes
you’re so patient it makes me cry
i’m waving to you as the water climbs higher
brace with me for the curse of my desire

sometimes i’m in touch with my soul
sometimes it’s as dark as dark goes
sometimes i’m the king of rock and roll
sometimes i’m the has been that never was

but still you take me in with simple eyes
you’re so patient it makes me cry
i’m screaming for you as the fire climbs higher
tie me down for the curse of my desire

03. Quiet Whales

quiet whales circle in the know
and they’re matching in grey my intentions
only time knows where the future goes
i think all alone
as i sink like a stone

this melody once here to comfort me has fallen apart
nothing can stop the weight of me
the ships at sea once here to rescue me
have drifted apart nothing can start the wake in me

a little warmth is all this winter boy needs
the connection is found in dream
all i wake up to find is this cliché of mine
is this cliché of mine

this melody once here to comfort me has fallen apart
nothing can stop the weight of me
the ships at sea once here to rescue me
have drifted apart nothing can start the wake in me

these currents
are rolling over the line and into the palisades
if i knew better i’d roll with the view
this violence
is boiling over time and through the dark retrograde
if i knew better i’d believe it’s true

this melody once here to comfort me has fallen apart
nothing can stop the weight of me
the ships at sea once here to rescue me
have drifted apart nothing can start the wake in me

04. Digging Me Up

in this my summer of solace
it comes down to this
five storm fronts pin paralyzed
my soul motionless

then like a swirl of diamonds
through the city skies your sirens bled by
undergrounding
to ping this spine

just when i thought that nobody could
you’re digging me up when i thought i was down for good
ten years in the haze
just when i thought that nobody could
you’re digging me up when i thought i was down for good
ten tears in the maze

one call forgets all of the broken lives
this basket of regrets is empty
a broken man is fixed he climbs

the past is all past you help me realize
it’s been said before every good man
gets a little hard luck sometimes

just when i thought that nobody could
you’re digging me up when i thought i was down for good
ten years in the haze
just when i thought that nobody could
you’re digging me up when i thought i was down for good
ten tears in the maze

moments of silence
pull me through another time and
my blonde go-getter
with a dash of tao
signalled my lost satellite
reached through the sky and pulled me down
i am home i am home

05. Wonder

a foot thrown over a continental wall
a borrowed shoulder and this began it all
never listened but you knew it all along
through a land of stop signs round the corner from a fall

it’s a wonder to me why you’re so blue
when all this heaven’s right here for you
i know that it hurts sometimes when the moonlight licks you by surprise but i could never be cruel to you

was it growing up wild in the outer spheres?
or summering on the cyanide shore?
something tricked you away
but you don’t have to trick me to stay

it’s a wonder to me why you’re so blue
when all this heaven’s right here for you
i know that it hurts sometimes when the moonlight licks you by surprise but i could never be cruel to you

your idiosyncrasies are like melodies
like little wings
get caught in the powerlines every time you try to fly
and as i’m sifting through these memories
sharp dangerous things
don’t ever stop to ask me why

it’s a wonder to me why you’re so blue
when all this heaven’s right here for you
i know that it hurts sometimes when the moonlight licks you by surprise but i could never be cruel to you

it’s a wonder to me…
it’s a wonder to me…

06. Quiet Whales [reprise]

quiet whales circle in the know
and they’re matching in grey my intentions
only time knows where the future goes
i think all alone
as i sink like a stone

a little warmth is all this winter boy needs
the connection is found in dream
all i wake up to find
is this cliché of mine
is this cliché of mine

this melody once here to comfort me has fallen apart
nothing can stop the weight of me
the ships at sea once here to rescue me have drifted apart
nothing can start the wake in me

quiet whales circle in the know

Love and Armageddon [2009]

01. This Show Must Go On
02. Had To Pay
03. Lightbulbs
04. Cartography by Candlelight
05. Complicit
06. Weightless

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01. This Show Must Go On

swallow a diamond
and get invisible with me
all i want is half you’ve got
decimal purity

grant me asylum
and part the lips of mystery
and strum the strings of love

making love on the beach
between the bodies and the bombs
ooh babe- this show must go on
are you ready to do it?
dance on through it?
can you feel me now?
ooh babe- this show must go on.

there’s rebellion in your eyes
something the scanners must be missing
reflected in the the traffic cam
silouettes of kissing

under the cell tower
divulge to me everything
under the chemtrails
divulge, divulge, divulge, divulge, divulge

making love on the beach
between the bodies and the bombs
ooh babe- this show must go on
are you ready to do it?
dance on through it?
can you feel me now?
ooh babe- this show must go on.

from the ruins of the 90s
a seed from another planet yet still earthborn
stations of the cross
fourteen on the floor
from the gardens of the east
charlotte still comes calling
on the steps of grand central in the rain
on the steps of grand central in the rain

making love on the beach
between the bodies and the bombs
ooh babe- this show must go on
are you ready to do it?
dance on through it?
can you feel me now?
ooh babe- this show must go on.

02. Had To Pay

started out simple nuff
cup of coffee here and there
nickel and dime just to pass the time
for a girl from kansas fair
you know how these things happen
a ribbon to a bow
new dress and shoes in tow

then here’s me
withdrawn in ripped jeans and
stained tee
still counting backwards and
banged up love for you
if i had to pay

here’s me
thirsty but not caring
retarded smile
but here’s the thing-
you’d be well to do
if I had to pay
to think of you

then one day over time
you’re in a chateau on the rhine
do you savor thoughts of me
over good bread and better wine?
you know how these things happen
in your private jet over sudan
contemplating the economy of japan

then here’s me
box on the off ramp and
spanging
my cardboard sign reads
banged up love for you
if i had to pay

here’s me
hungry but not caring
retarded smile
but here’s the thing-
you’d be well to do
if i had to pay
to think of you

here’s me
i am bleeding through
i give you all- text and get nothing
i am destitute
cause I’ve had to pay

here’s me
i cannot pretend
that we are actually two-way friends
i’m moving on from you
i’m moving on from you
i’m moving on from you

03. Lightbulbs

falling leaves
always get me in the soul’s place
out of range- oh
falling leaves
always send me through that doorway
and into play- oh

i’ll trade this summer’s flesh and bone
if it means i won’t be alone
there’s something sweet bout going home
and that’s my brother calling on the phone

lightbulbs float to me
across the waves upon the sea
glowing in breathtaking fashion
lightbulbs float to me
backwards now they’re flashing
in the most heavenly patterns

static of tv
short circuits everything i’m meant to be
if i let it be
the hum of radio
drowns out the lesson that i’m meant to know
if i don’t let it go

but there is meaning in the call
enough to satisfy us all
and there is grace after the fall
recalling flora on the wall

lightbulbs float to me
across the waves upon the sea
glowing in breathtaking fashion
lightbulbs float to me
backwards now they’re flashing
in the most heavenly patterns

i’m so in love…
i’m so in love…

lightbulbs float to me
across the waves upon the sea
glowing in breathtaking fashion
lightbulbs float to me
backwards now they’re flashing
in the most heavenly patterns

background vox: TROY

04. Cartography by Candlelight

doesn’t it bug me
the way im so true
doesn’t it bug me
the way i’m here for you

it’s in the code
the winds i listen to
doesn’t it bug me
the way that i love you

the way that you drug me
im gum on your shoe
like a cat these tunes
dead birds i bring for you

but you’ll never know
the dark you’ve lit me through
the accidental candle
on elizabeth avenue

cartography by candlelight

counting curves hug me
in the back of a truck bound and gagged
listening for bridges rumble- anything
to find my way back where i began

it doesn’t bug me
the burn of rope the grain of sand
no it doesn’t bug me
cause this spy’s life
is all i’ve ever had

cartography by candlelight

voiceover: Lena Pavlova

05. Complicit

figured out how to work it
but that was years ago
staring down a mean rope
but im steady

across september i took it
but we are never alone
turning over a new leaf
but it’s heavy

and this time
i’m not gonna let them kick you down

steps away from a lake
we’ve never been to together
i just can’t calculate- oh
the moves i make cannot compare
to your delicious disses
don’t you lie:
you are complicit in these kisses

hot souls
wrapped in little machines
we’re a hot mess collette
if you know what i mean

dragged down
in the city of dreams
it’s getting the best of you
and it’s killing me

and this time
im not gonna let you kick me down

steps away from a lake
we’ve never been to together
i just can’t calculate- oh
the moves i make cannot compare
to your delicious disses
don’t you lie…

so tonight we’re chasing vices
you the white and me well you
so tonight i’m taking license
to be all over you

steps away from a lake
we’ve never been to together
i just can’t calculate- oh
the moves i make cannot compare
to your delicious disses
don’t you lie, don’t you lie, don’t you lie:
you are complicit in these kisses

06. Weightless
(by thomas dolby)

some nights he’s weightless
he has to travel
his mouth is gravel
and there’s an empty feeling
within his heart

eye on the fuel gauge
westchester throughway
that triple octane won’t contain the empty feeling
in william’s heart

same old insecurity
strap him into his carseat
and a sump started leaking
all over new jersey
gas stations everywhere
not one drop to fill me

big hunk of carrot cake, blueberry milkshake
fistful of coldrex
won’t fix the empty feeling in lizzy’s heart

so she flips on the tv
takes in a movie
but all those memories won’t erase the empty feeling
from in her heart

then a dog woke inside of her
to watch the explosion
and a pipe started leaking
she bent to the basin
fruit juice everywhere
not one drop to fill me

(you could be the one)
she whispered
(love is all you’ve ever wanted
all you’ll ever need)

end of our summer
your body weightless
in condensation my heart learned to swim

background vox: Melissa Reasoner

Songs for the Sacred Age [2007]

disc one:

01. City of Heroes
02. Universe Like You
03. God Knows
04. Thin Blue Line
05. Stronger Than Love
06. Nostalgia
07. Soft Simple Ritual
08. Grow Crazy
09. Sanctuary
10. Just Another Girl
11. Charlie
12. Sigmund and Pandora
13. Glimpse
14. Kiss to History
15. Hotel Maslow
16. Snakeshedskin
17. 14 Leaves
18. Snowangels
19. Waterside

disc two:

20. Here I Am
21. Inside We’re Lovers
22. Roadstar
23. Call Our Own
24. Angelgives
25. Margaret
26. Capulet Grin
27. Breathing Underwater
28. This April Evening
29. Ashland
30. Deep Dark Secret
31. Brutal
32. 7000 Satellites
33. Timetable Stitch
34. Tread
35. Gavel
36. Simple Song
37. Goodbye Cassiopeia

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01. City Of Heroes

so youve mastered the metaphor game
and now nothing on earth is the same
its only time but its critical its only time

like the movies you swim in your dreams
grin devoid of your critical fiends
when you wake up your roles been cast out
the old flicks back: the one thats built to lose
but its only time

when intelligence and lust turn to wisdom and love
youre on the escalator through the ether up above

when the white limos come out to play
and the license plates spell out the way
youll know its time its inevitable
you scare me girl like my worn-out seaside melody memory
you cant dodge the past like you cant dodge gravity
but you can learn to trick its spin its only time

and if you believe its all too good to be true…

schizophrenia heights is a commuter town
this life we used to chalk around til I felt your flower unfold
and I remember the silence, your arm clutching mine
the cress of soft belong up the escalator ride
through the ether to the dome
my synchronia…

but until that time
all static aside
when you hate the world do you still love me?

02. Universe Like You

my ankles red from preterite’s chain
my head in the light from the dawn of a new age
my body pays its constant wage
what’s a girl to do when she’s faced with half-mast attitude?
what’s a girl to do when she’s a universe like you?

i don’t mind that you don’t talk much
this tricks fashion…
pray the fall is tricked from fate
from words’ swift capture

half blazing sun- the lustre dazzles clear seas
you put this on you
sometimes it spins round in my head
what’s a girl to do when she’s faced with bearshirt attitude?
what’s a girl to do when she’s a universe like you?

into the world we fall down
it’s in the air we breathe
jump down you needn’t see

what’s a girl to do when she’s faced with half-mast attitude?
what’s a girl to do when she’s a when she’s a universe like you?

03. God Knows

twenty years ago today
the sky set forth an angel’s face
for the past twenty-four hours
i’ve been sketching you

on this day
hypocrisy comes screaming out
it grabs my neck
it slaps me across my face
i love you.

if i could throw our love up as a star
where not even i could mess it around
you know i would
if i could shape this stubborn heart of mine
to match your face
god knows i would

we see the holy in each other
we see the grace the beauty but not the real
but this world where we have to live is
so when the paris sun is smiling down on you
will you see my face in the clouds?
my god i’ll miss you
my god i miss you now

if i could throw our love up as a star
where not even i could mess it around
you know i would
if i could shape this stubborn heart of mine
to match your face
god knows i would

04. Thin Blue Line

curves just like matisse
my fountain loneliness- my masterpiece
crooked pen is all you’re gonna get from me
this is not a simple world and simple lines could strangle me

this drink won’t slick me out of shackle- and
this girl won’t pull me free of chain
so what to do on the slippery black mountaintop of my days?
i can’t talk- you don’t know. you don’t. no- you don’t know.

lost in semaphor tonight- are you reading?
melt a red new artifact
lost in semaphor tonite
new earth waits. plan on radio tonite.

when the sun is over tokyo
empty mind and float to me in sleep
no it’s not quite dream
yes, it’s much nicer there
here we’re just two human beings
yes, it’s much nicer there
here we clink just like machines

sending semaphor tonite- here it comes again:
melt a red new artifact
sending semaphor tonite
new earth waits. plan on radio tonite.

through the earthquake… in the submarine…
maybe you will be with me
we leave at 10 to 5 to dive…
under the thin blue line

i just can’t live this way anymore and change is too hard

05. Stronger than Love

hey baby… where have you gone?
i think of you when im driving
through rains like these
hey baby… you ran for the door
when you found that your fathers blue hat
wouldnt fit me anymore

i think you know what im thinking of
did you have to prove your secrets
were stronger than your love for me?

hey maybe… think we could settle the score?
but youd have to learn how to say im sorry
just a little bit more
hey baby… this is what they call open arms
but youll have to make this phone light up yeah
just a little bit

i think you know what im thinking of
did you have to prove your secrets
were stronger than your love for me?

i think you know what im dreaming of
but did you have to prove your secrets
were stronger than your love
i think i know what youre dreaming of
did you have to prove your secrets
were stronger than your love for me?

06. Nostalgia

I came because I had to know
now i’m flipping switches in the dashboard glow
see my blue face in the glass curve around
i float above the silent vine- pause for –
the way her waist bent just like time
then rocket past the point of exploitation
and east over the dateline

nostalgia ain’t what it used to be
still you wore it well…
you can’t wear it next to me

a kid so safe, naïve, and cool
democracy’s some word from school
i’m up here lonely as i’m strong
passing time on your dime

spinning dishes and smashing plates
are much more fun to watch from space
but no impressive bloodline is gonna
shake you loose, not this time
your cool idol grip just makes you blind
all the time

nostalgia
still you wear it well….

like something old, something new
something borrowed, something blue
shift something old to something new
something lifeless, tired, and true.

nostalgia ain’t what it used to be
and love ain’t what it ever was
and love ain’t what it ever was…

07. Soft Simple Ritual

so simply something
under the sunlight through the window of the schoolroom
something simple singing ‘kiss me in the hall’
oh it’s okay you don’t know me

so simply something
when i look i see your lips and not tomorrow
when you walk out i follow you down the stairs (every time)
such a lucky cigarette to get to touch your skin
books sit so boring but this is because i have them
and because i can read them
unlike you

let these pilgrims dance without a word
has 1940’s romance gone to sleep in cowardice’s bed
let these pilgrims dance without a word
has soft simple ritual been left for dead?

scribble and scratch away the hour and fifteen minute game
before you say a word just let me be alone
so simply something
why don’t you sit near me next time
why don’t you pause and let me kiss you in the hall

let these pilgrims dance without a word
has 1940’s romance gone to sleep in cowardice’s bed
let these pilgrims dance without a word
has soft simple ritual been left for dead?

let these pilgrims dance without a word
has 1940’s romance gone to sleep in cowardice’s bed
let these pilgrims dance around the world
has soft simple ritual been left for dead?
08. Grow Crazy

love- so sick and sweet
go cry your eyes out
love- just like a cool chain on a hot day
go cry your eyes out

all your nightmares are totally real
but it’s still no fucking big deal
your gruesome death is just a formality
i met a green 19 typified what it means
to come on just a little too strong
she was great at sex but she never gave me subtext

light- turning tricks with heat
matter turns the blinds down on a japanese town
and life- faith and dissolve
yeah, get a map of the green and new land
from a manhattan newsstand

all your nightmares are totally real
but it’s still no fucking big deal
this fiery crash just preceeds reality

grow crazy little flower
the sweetest one of all
rolling under moonlight isle
i’ll catch you if you fall

all your nightmares are totally real
but it’s still no fucking big deal
i met a green 19 typified what it means
to come on just a little too strong
she was great at sex but she never gave me subtext

09. Sanctuary

innocence is fleeting now
above the sky and over london
dealing out secret goodbyes
the cell goes dead- i know it’s over

but with time
it comes clear
there is sanctuary
and i cannot hide
what’s inside
bring me sanctuary

the vega system beckons now
without past without future
hard blue jeans, dilated eyes
the cell snaps on- i pull you closer

and with time
it comes clear
all is sanctuary
and i cannot hide
what’s inside
all is sanctuary

and i would have never known
if it had all been blown
and i never would have seen
the tears in your eyes

and with time
it comes clear
all is sanctuary
and i cannot hide
what’s inside
all is sanctuar

10. Just Another Girl

last night in a cold dream
you were just another girl to me

i’ve tasted electra’s red lips
in the solid blue light of the day
in a shopping mall
eyes like angels
and a phrase or two i never would say

i never could say what she was thinking
i never could. i never could.

last night in a cold dream
you were just another girl to me

your back can’t bend from the weight of the world
when you wear your halo on the inside
behold the brilliant flash
when 3 worlds collide

my servant indentured is easily censored
when the faceless clouds crowd up the sky
so you expand your collection
aid the resurrection
of the love, the guilt, and the lie

last night in a cold dream
every night in a cold dream
you were just another girl to me
you are just another girl to me

i think she’s finding someone else in me
i think she’s finding someone else

11. Charlie

you were the heroic man
forced to fashion map to end
the undying search for evidence
the world could hold your soul

passion’s quest: self-validation
handing forthright your salvation:
self-preservation

with Ireland under wing you knew,
that spilt-second proved that every crazy thought you ever had was true
and you were too

as you rise the trees turn to bushes and barns to little children’s toys
these are your words charlie this was your liberation

you took off amidst the cries of fool
then paris caught you in a pool of flashbulbs
cooledge shipped you back home and soon you would find
that it could never be your home again what sorry lesson did your soul learn
when after something you did for you the people went and claimed you?
for the move to free yourself you became the prize possession
as you laid shackled- they took away your little boy

but this was long ago
now you’re in the sky where you’ve always felt the best
you are in your favorite place forever

as you rose the trees turned to bushes
your selfish fans to silly buzzing flies
you are the sky now charlie
you are the sky now charlie
this is your liberation.

clarinet: Susannah Maldonado

12. Sigmund and Pandora

across his austrian desk
the candlelit papers rustle the winds of tortured past
and the words assigned
to what cannot be described
would rip apart a nation

the rev of the engine roar
half the western world aboard except one
certain generation
timetable ripped my watch has stopped again
so when so when will phoenix fly again?

the 6502 and microwave
only bring us faster to the same old empty answers
as the abacus and fire
there are no new books worth reading
for they’re all the old in different tongue
lines prescribed to fit the time to feed the hungry masses

across the marble cliffs she danced
the box tucked neat between her arms and breast
temptation’s breath comes from the west
what strong world could shrivel with the softest peek?
one curiousity based motion…

pen falling, sigmund wipes his brow
hinges creak, pandora takes her peek

and the world came crashing down

backup vocals: Danielle Schneider
violin: Renee Chester

13. Glimpse

lips like armageddon
useless drama
about as useless as life is
always a new bullet flies
like a script through the ringers of the public eye

why don’t you run my life?
then later tell me i’m running my life wrong
why don’t you run my life?
and later tell me i’m doing it all wrong

sometimes i see things exactly how they are
but like a jumping fish all i get is just a glimpse
like a jumping fish all i get is just a glimpse

in the land of ‘i have therefore i am’
what we cling to owns us
well i mean
until the next one does
until the next and
the next time you think of me
won’t you do it oh so sweetly
please remember i won’t have
any thoughts of you

sometimes i see things exactly how they are
but like a jumping fish all i get is just a glimpse
like a jumping fish all i get is just a glimpse

you say you want a simple song- oh
you say that you want something sensible
but life is not simple all the time
and life does not make sense all the time

sometimes i sing things exactly how they are
but like a jumping fish all i get is just a glimpse
like a jumping fish all i get is just a glimpse

14. Kiss To History

i got a bitchin’ car
i drive it real far
zero to infinity in 7 little seconds
i got a bitchin’ girl
i’ll drive her round the world
zero to infinity in 7 little seconds

first we’ll go to hollywood
and then to 2010
give a kiss to history
and come back home again

i got a bitchin’ sub
it’ll save us from the rub
susie hates the moving plates when all she wants is love, love
i got a bitchin’ piece of land
out somewhere in the sand
on satellite we’ll watch the fight
safe by second hand
safe… seven… seconds…

first we’ll go to hollywood
and then to 2010
give a kiss to history
and swim back home again

15. Hotel Maslow

i used to see her on the elevator sometimes
going up and down on her spring days (no she never stayed)
and this crazy life- this car and this broken room
all the lies i never listened to
yes, they fall from every mouth: from everyone but you

i’m finally flying now

don’t speak- language sometimes lies
feel don’t think anymore
our thoughts are shaped in language
and language sometimes lies

speak only what you mean
you’re finally flying now

is it such a secret?
listen: the past is trying to eat the future
now is it such a secret?
you never understand our tongues anyway

and now it’s summer in crash city
and the age of two-tenths rule
she’s knee deep in water in a basement
punching buttons on a dead elevator

i’m finally flying now.

16. Snakeshedskin

you’re an angel in a little girl
in an angel’s clothing- foil wings rip…
you’re an angel inside a little girl
wearing an angel’s outfit foil wings rip your sides

you can’t carry me now

you wear holy in your devil’s world
when cobalt blue skies fall down by your sides
it’s the western curse
it’s a soul trap
but it’s heaven in disguise…

once you take yours off

shed your pretense- like snakeshedskin
shed legacy- like snakeshedskin
shed your raised one- like snakeshedskin
shed the other one- like snakeshedskin

waters rise and spirits fall
and spirits rise through water
sunspot position you’ll never get
sans hell’s badge alma-mater, baby
starry eyes in a starry dress
i must confess: you look beautiful tonight
you’re spitting tongues, throwing fingers
no no, no no no.

shed inheritence- like snakeshedskin
shed your mortal coil- like snakeshedskin
shed your black hole sun- like snakeshedskin
shed your judgement gun- like snakeshedskin
shed your pretense- like snakeshedskin
shed legacy- like snakeshedskin
shed your raised one- like snakeshedskin
shed your judgement gun- like snakeshedskin

shed Whitehorse.
shed Star.
shed Andean.
shed your Braeside.
shed me, shed me- like snakeshedskin.

flugelhorn, trumpet, trombone: Jim Berry

17. 14 Leaves

why the fuck do you do what you do to yourself?
what you feel on the inside makes you
grab what you do from the outside: sunshine or suicide

you are the decorator of your dungeon
and it’s your right to chain your heart up
as it is to set your demons free

you blame your house, you blame your job
make your mother culprit
you blame the sky, you blame the rain
cursing puddles, won’t you

14 leaves falling
their brilliant colors all for you
but all you do is think of rakes and messes
14 leaves falling
and you don’t owe them anything except for you

(don’t be afraid to live your life right girl)

amidst the conversation she drags her fingers across her wrists
life is a fashionable joke in this town
just ask them- just look around
you’ve got the curse to complain about infinite things
curses turn to blessings the moment you start to live life the real way

you blame your house, you blame your job
make your sister culprit
you blame the world for your attitude

14 leaves falling
their brilliant colors all for you
but all you do is think of rakes and messes
14 leaves falling
and you don’t owe them anything except for you

18. Snowangels

don’t mind the roadkill
with the spiral t.v. eyes
don’t worry baby
they’ve been dead for a long time
still i’d lock the doors

see back in the day
when holidays revolved round
cartoon characters
with a capitalist flair
that’s what kids became
tonight the clicking handles
sound just like the rain

scraps of standard oil
make a kind of new design
just slip in cassettes
when the AP reads all wrong
light a smoke and drive

listening to jazz
with the windshield wipers on
and it dawns on me

we’re just snowangels, baby
angels in the glow
it’s nuclear wintertime
and we’re snowangels

city limit signs
become a part of the sky
blur define serene
the gumball swirl behind us
celebrates our speed
but getting rolled, kid
really ain’t my kind of scene
red and blue lights in rearview
look like cool ice cream

doc that hancock signed
is a testament of time
don’t let light get lost
when the elements are gone
blinded by the right

this mosaic of chaos
this magnificent parade
they say that’s all the low bands
are good for nowadays
something in the carrier
sent them tumbling through the snow
searching through the white for gold

every mother knows
that the key to life thus goes:
elasticity

and we’re snowangels, baby
angels in the glow
it’s nuclear wintertime
and we’re snowangels

19. Waterside

the old car in the driveway just jumped backwards twice
like the pull before any good renaissance
now love and hate are kissing in the backseat
as it flies on down the road

raised in the shadows of sluts and rebels
jenny diver kept her pearls away
from the drunkest cassanova
and the bold crash city girls

an ill mind… the body of a dancer
leather the color of childhood
and a few other shades we never fully understand

and by the waterside she put my hands inside
and it was something gold that day
by the waterside
i might just have found something
real

like a butterfly suture on a timeline
the way we raped fate
water rushing through the pipeline
here are the big sky days

and by the waterside she showed me how to die
and it was something gold and i say:
you know it wasn’t half bad
i’m telling you now
you know it wasn’t half bad

20. Here I Am

can i have your attention before
the span is totally closed? …it’s so close
are you gonna do something about this?
just like the rest of your friends
that have the millennium bends
it’s harder to dream awake
harder than to sleep the day away

here i am- for all to enjoy
here i am- my name is spaceboy
here i am- society’s toy
here i am

if everybody knew everything
half the world would kill themselves
and the other half would just make love
just go up on the street on any shadowless afternoon
and look real hard
you can make out the tear

here i am- for girls and boys
here i am- my name is spaceboy

and i’ve been around
i was there the night the city ripped in two
and i’ve been around
i watched them burn up the cash in twenty-two
i woke up next to a forest full of words
i took one look and laughed all day

you are not your mind.
you are not your mind.
you are not your mind.

21. Inside We’re Lovers

it’s a miracle we never hooked up
two sluts like us
outside we’re friends
but inside we’re lovers
who just haven’t fucked

here it comes
i know it’s just post-modern daze
when i’m caught up in your loving violent gaze
here it comes
a daughter of the sacred age
and i’m finally seeing what gets in the way

it’s immaterial we never looked up
two skies and one mountainside
cause i’m playing the nice guy
and this perfume we’ve synthesized
it just keeps burning my eyes
am i just out of luck?

here it comes
i know it’s just post-modern daze
when i’m caught up in your loving violent gaze
here it comes
a daughter of the sacred age
and i’m finally seeing what gets in the way

evolve past what dear?
evolve past what dear?

it’s a miracle we never hooked up
two sluts like us

here it comes
i know it’s just post-modern daze
when i’m caught up in your loving violent gaze
here it comes
a daughter of the sacred age
and i’m finally seeing what gets in the way

22. Roadstar

all this energy
opened up by you
satiate me deep

my robots go wild
metal arms once flailing
now have nothing to do
nothing to do but everything

23. Call Our Own

no these bricks they were not meant for us
these otherwise kind 2x4s might have built a fire we could not escape together
fate saw us smother in the ashes
sister delphi through the rain

no these sheets they were not meant for us
these otherwise blind blankets might have tossed us cross the lines true friends must tow-
trust tow together

no, i can’t see
kiss him once for me
duck around the corner of a brownstone we were too afraid to call our own
but it’s okay it’s alright now

don’t you know we did the right thing
when right thing’s hard these monsters run back to the dock where they know they belong
fate saw us panning through the ashes
sister Delphi through the waves
please tell me we did the right thing
the ropes i thought might save me could have fashioned past the lifeboat’s timely call
to call home forever
sister Delphi through the waves

no i can’t see
kiss him once for me
duck around the corner of the brownstone we were too afraid to call our own
but it’s okay it’s alright now

looking back on floorboards waxed through dancesteps tear-purpled photographs
i sit back and rewrite every love song as if i were the only one
but to me- you know i am.

no these bricks they were not meant for us

rock on window: Mark “Murph” Murphy

24. Angel Gives

night fell so softly
to serve this twisted man’s waking hour
tossed alone in the crowd’s raging surge
two million trampled left lackadaisical birthing scars
across the withering flesh of our nation’s chest

what my angel gives

night slipped away to the pull of the progression horns
rattle back instead in my head
what can i do? this is my world, too
my friend don’t go away
stay, stay, stay

what my angel gives

night fell again so softly on its cue
i beg to pull the blue sky away from the black

[excerpt from he and she #13:]

they sat in the cool night’s desert under a curving blanket of stars. that evening they were the only two people in the world. they were alive, alone, apart from culture’s pull. fate’s generosity snapped them out of politics’ shackles and they were free to interact with each other, each other’s other and nobody else. this world was built for them. They exchanged words rarely, as they had long been rendered unnecessary- like choosing soda over water. This seemed to be when he loved her- when they were alone. not alone in the house of his father which reeked of his subordination. Not alone in the house of her mother that was never her home, but in the desert miles and miles and miles away from any faint influence. They were alone. And they were loving.

backup vocals: Hari Allen

25. Margaret

last night i dreamt i married margaret
she asked me and i thought
you’ve got to marry someone

last night i dreamt i married margaret
she grabbed my hand and i thought
you’ve got to marry someone

margaret short and thin looked up at me
and said i know i barely know you
but you’ve got to marry someone
so why not?

middle of the night
i wake up soaked sheet wet wrapped up and then-
i fall asleep again

margaret short and thin looked up at me
and said i know i barely know you
but you’ve got to marry someone

last night i dreamt i married margaret
in a dress that let her tattoo show
she said- you gotta stay with me forever now
i said i know
she said that’s the deal you know
i said you know i know

but you’ve got to marry someone.
you’ve got to marry someone
you’ve got to marry someone
you’ve got to marry someone

26. Capulet Grin

so you want to know what real love is
so you want to understand
i’d love to show you girl what real love is
but i don’t know that i can

i ain’t cut out to wear no romeo clothing
darlin that just not in the plan
so won’t you get rid of that capulet grin now
don’t tug so heavy on my hand

i can’t be your superman

so you want to know what real love is
to put some blood back in your heart
i’d love to show you girl what real love is
but i don’t know where to start

my story’s nothin like a verona love song
no such sweet verses in my head
so won’t you get rid of that capulet grin now
and look at what you’ve got instead

i can’t be your superman

susannah maldonado: backup vocals
jim berry: trumpet, trombone
john paul camp, tenor & baritone saxophone

27. Breathing Underwater

sarah is silent down on the southside
with a bold shock of redshift hair
watching the streetboys down on the corner
vomit white light into the air

off in the countryside
the christians wait to be alive
sarah takes the UFOs into her eyes

venus is barking up on the northside
glaring with her metric eyes
weighing everyone she sees
against some antique morality
with unconditional love

all the bitspeed in the world
ain’t gonna change the image of man
(not like a sound kiss can)
all the bandwidth in the world
ain’t gonna improve the image of man
(not like a sound kiss…)

off in the countryside
the christians still wait to be alive
but sarah slips right through the door into the sky

breathing underwater is an art like any other
breathing underwater is an art like any other
breathing underwater is an art like any other

28. This April Evening

took it years to grow
took us time to petal out
fragrance full and something
watch you slip around
i’d die for the eyecandy of ya

sometimes i want to live forever
sometimes i wonder if maybe i’m dead
i’d give my kingdom for the flavour of the right kiss
i’d give my heart to save the treasured lips that sing this

and in the morning
we watch these flowers fall
i don’t want to ever be set free
this april evening
i’ll pull you behind the trees
and show you what you mean to me

gap ‘tween me and who i want to be keeps trenching out
crossing seconds
hole between you and me i want to flee keeps creeping
filled by either tears or blood or you

sometimes i want to live forever
sometimes i wonder if maybe i’m dead
i’d give my kingdom for the flavour of the right kiss
i’d give my heart to save the treasured lips that sing this

waitress pours the coffee
i dance out in the clouds
looking hoping waiting wanting
watch you slip around
i’d die for the eyecandy of ya
i’d die i’d die i’d die

my life is a triangle of love and sex and death
so spin it round
stuck between the fear of 6 and the love of 7
spin it round

and in the morning we’d watch these flowers fall
i don’t want to ever be set free
this april evening i’ll pull you behind the trees
and show you what you mean to me

and in the morning when we’d watch these flowers fall
i’d lose my head to some degree
this april evening i’ll pull you behind the trees
and show you what you mean to me

29. Ashland

city litter swirls making the skin of the invisible man
catching the glow off the ionosphere
still fighting the cold war
what else is a well-trained soldier to do
buried in the deep suburban towns?
come 30 he’s finally learning to read on the surface
instead of sweeping for mines

if i hit the lights just right ashland will be green all night
come circuit splendor
love comes hidden in friction

she found him dead in the brush in a puddle of wax
broken rib, swimmer’s ear, and a hell of a tan
she came on him with gifts in tow of
ice, isopropyl, and aloe
cradles him after the fall
with a grace she believes she’s got only in dream
stitches his wings by degrees
wipes the porridge away from her mouth with her sleeve
leans with purpose
gives him her lips divine

if you hit the lights just right ashland will be green all night
and all the past is somehow suddenly justified
if somehow it’s funneled up to this
ashland will be green all night
love comes hidden in friction

30. Deep Dark Secret

you know i haven’t seen you for awhile
but in your absence how you still inspire
i’m going to tell you something
and i beg you don’t respond- no-
i don’t want to talk now.

see there are some things in this world
we pretend never happened
there are some things in this life we tend to
bend the truth about

i know your deep dark secret
yes that really really bad thing
you thought that you could hide
i know your deep dark secret

in my crooked way i care, i can’t lie
but i ask you not for water nor for sky
i don’t want to explain
let’s drop the subject now
i don’t want to talk now

see there are some things in this world
we pretend never happened
there are some things in this life we tend to
bend the truth about

how do i know?
well i look and it shows
what cues you choose to take defense
where no defense is needed
how do i know?
it shows right through your clothes
but it’s ok
i won’t tell a soul

yes there are some things in this world
and there are some things in this life

i know your deep dark secret
yes that really really bad thing
you thought that you were hiding well
i know your deep dark secret
i don’t mind..

31. Brutal

its brutal without you
i think of all the things we used to do
plum wine and cigarettes
on the back porch in the rain
its brutal without you

wasnt it a clue to love
when i touched your heel at Joy Blue?
now i dont mind a bed three times my size
sometimes but most of the time i do

its brutal without you
i think of all the places you took me to
from the top of an empire
to the depths of Alcatraz
its brutal without you

wasnt it a clue to love
when you shoved me in the lake? its true
i dont mind a will six times my size sometimes

were we alls a losing hand
on the ghost train to Frankfort?
nine of your rings i lost in blue
were we alls a winning hand?
with all this light upon my heels
im still coming for you
im still coming for you

32. 7000 Satellites

on the wings of a jailbreak
with your red lips by my side in this blue blue city
on a blue blue night
crazied out of all the lies that were the promises
and tied by all the promises that lied

we’re nearing the portal now…

7000 satellites

i am, i am a believer that the holy soul is damned
we’ll stand still in the plateshift 97
we’ll be dry in the cry of the suicide spree

we’re nearing the portal now…

7000 satellites

33. Timetable Stitch

i let this angel fuck things up again
trapped tween
the skate and the south wind
she sings contemporary’s mind
the kind that throws me back in time-
or should i say it tries
for the sake of tolerance
there’s poison mixed with faith
but venus on her virtue’s course
the sun a cloud it makes

and as the true sun climbs
it bends the shadows backwards
across the rock dial now
the light beats down the blackbirds

words just pull things…

in the dark i stumbled on the ladder
and like a switch i’m sensing 7 steps
venus is stuck on rung number 1
she keeps her children safely under- get it?

orion’s dotted waist marks the pathway to my sandy place
the pad to my home
jacob is waiting on the strip
and noah’s on the phone

and as timetable’s stiched
these wings can flap together
and now this wristwatch’s fixed
prepare for nasty weather

words just pull things…

something so poetic bout you
(i watch you dancing through spindles)
handling a horse named cosmo
(i watch you)
something so pretty
(i watch you swim)
bout the stars wrapped round your head
(swim in wave, wave, wave)

Oú est ma soeur que pouvais vivre sous le grand mer?
and now this jung clock’s locked and
words just pull things backwards

brett steffey: blowmelodian

34. Tread

it was just like yesterday I remember when we
tooled down to the wharf to take that helicopter ride
as I fingered hearts into the spirals of your hand we watched
the last of the sealife forms crawl their way onto the sand

the bucketholders arrive!
from certain solitude comes balance fair
deep crankin seal cut jive on me
thats what you came here for
big easy surprise: postponed

it was the springtime of my purity
when every night was the end of the world
underneath that infant moon
the crush of the upper-worlds altitude christmas
coin by coin I cashed in the kingdom for my consciousness

the bucketholders arrive!
and killed the chess guru from planet 9
conquering at the same time all three plastic atmospheres
right before our eyes with love

Ill take you all the way Ill take you all the way
Ill take you all the way Ill take you all the way

the bucketholders arrive!
with seashells in the speakers and skatefish on the grill
by the time august arrives
well be safe at home

trumpet samples: W. Wadsworth Steffey

35. Gavel

i used to think i was immortal
until it threw me down
scraped knees and locked up for the rational sound

for 25 long years it kept me going round
i’d bring it up- and bring it back down
i used to think i was immortal
but now i know for sure

and if you say you gotta go- well
you know i’d never blame ya
but when faced with honest love you just run

gavel is your guillotine

you know i hate it when you swing that thing around
it scares the hell out of me
inverse- and fear driven- judgementality

it’s the theme for a dying star
what you think you are
it’s the theme for a dying star
what you really are

and when you said you had to go- well
you know i never blamed ya
bad things come in groups of one

gavel is your guillotine

36. Simple Song

can you ever sing a simple song she intimated to me
give me for once simple circumstances and maybe we’ll see

but it’s not the world that’s falling
you’re falling away
it’s not the world

for some blokes words fall like rain
but for me it’s not the same

through box-kite windows you can spy
the boy with the microscope eyes
and he’s trying to dream of a soft world

and sleep becomes the only way
to forget about the function
and sleep becomes the only way
to focus on the wave

for some blokes words fall like rain
until the falling tune sounds like the best
and then the violence starts again

from the edge I pull back
I turn and hear bulldozers
but I’m still looking at you
my American woman
and these patriot kisses
long and deep like lies
but I’m still looking at you…
am I American?

37. Goodbye Cassiopeia

stories spread across the skies
they told you it’s a lion
they told you it’s a bow and arrow
oh but don’t you believe them

pictures spread across the sky
they told you it’s a bear
they told you those were pots and pans
(what else do you believe?)
cause i believe you and i
i see you and i say-

hey! goodbye cassiopeia

they told you it’s a lion
they told you it’s a bow and arrow…

galileo’s heavens
just a man like you and i
lost his daily bread for a dream
celestial etch-a-sketch away

pictures spread across the sky
they told you it’s a bear
they told you those were pots and pans
but i see you and i
i see you and i say-

hey! goodbye cassiopeia

Romance of the Spaceways [2006]

01. Moongirl
02. Taste
03. Sanctuary
04. Only One I Ever Wanted
05. Counting Backwards
06. Molly Molly
07. Simple Song
08. First Time Caller
09. Nobody Goes To Hell
10. Darjeeling
11. Gush
12. You Put Me Under

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01. Moongirl

you think you’re cool but it’s just another distraction
you’re not immune to the rules of attraction
was it true we embraced in 69
did the planet believe a lie?
I think you’re drawn to someone with more mass than I

moongirl- it’s been a lonely century
lull me with the motion of your tide
moongirl- is it you mean so much to me?
help me find tranquility inside

they say that only 3 have ever seen the likes of your dark side
but that doesn’t mean that I can’t have a crack at my time
your legendary right hook and two kisses in a cab
I’ll bet you a jackson that’s the most I’ll ever have

moongirl- it’s been a lonely century
lull me with the motion of your tide
moongirl- is it you mean so much to me?
help me find tranquility in time

and on those harvest nights
when you seem so close that I might kiss you
it’s a thumbnail illusion

and on those harvest nights
when you seem so close I start to miss you
and I wake up in confusion

moongirl- it’s been a lonely century
lull me with the motion of your tide
moongirl- is it you mean so much to me?
help me find tranquility inside

02. Taste
(lyrics by A. Weiss and W. Steffey)

get a squirtgun
galaxie 500 and a car
off the fastest road take the faster road onto the fast road
encore

taste your lips
it’s sweat on our cigarette
your dreams will never be the same again
taste your lips
i do say it’s heaven sent
oh oh oh

frolic with bambi
the scenic route is just around the bend
off the fastest road take the faster road onto the fast road
amen

taste your lips
it’s sweat on our cigarette
your dreams will never be the same again
taste your lips
i do swear it’s heaven sent

and you know it’s just the little things
that keep me warm at night
when the world spins just right
if you can weather the anticipation
it’s a message for across the nations
everything is just as supposed to be

taste your lips
it’s sweat on our cigarette
your dreams will never be the same again
taste your lips
i do swear it’s heaven sent

03. Sanctuary

innocence is fleeting now
above the sky and over london
dealing out secret goodbyes
the cell goes dead- i know it’s over

but with time
it comes clear
there is sanctuary
and i cannot hide
what’s inside
bring me sanctuary

the vega system beckons now
without past without future
hard blue jeans, dilated eyes
the cell snaps on- i pull you closer

and with time
it comes clear
all is sanctuary
and i cannot hide
what’s inside
all is sanctuary

and i would have never known
if it had all been blown
and i never would have seen
the tears in your eyes

and with time
it comes clear
all is sanctuary
and i cannot hide
what’s inside
all is sanctuary

04. Only One I Ever Wanted

memories that make me jump the groove
every time i think of you
electric shocks that make my body move
there’s no explanation

it all comes flooding back through time
the golden era when called you mine
monorail rides with my hand beneath your theigh
with no destination

the only one i ever wanted
the only one i ever wanted
the only one i ever wanted

i flew a cessna to cancun
with treasured hopes of finding you
but the tailwind died out much too soon
leaving me stranded

today i finally realized
the accident that locked you into lie
but every story has a million sides
and this is only mine

the only one i ever wanted
the only one i ever wanted
the only one i ever wanted
you’re the only one

and oh the horror when you find
that after all this time
you’ve been fighting for the wrong side

the only one i ever wanted
the only one i ever wanted
the only one i ever wanted
you’re the only one

05. Counting Backwards

the boy with no hands
the boy with no mouth
staring at the 7 sisters
declination: figure it out

its all that i can do
connecting dots of blue
after the fireside
when i’m in bed with you

here i am
drinking tea on the moon
counting backwards
dreaming of you
girl you know that you’re driving me crazy
but that glow is nothing short of amazing

the girl with 2 hearts
sultry xanex eyes
sailing through the pleiades
right ascension 3:45

here i am
drinking tea on the moon
counting backwards
dreaming of you
girl you know that you’re driving me crazy
but that glow is nothing short of amazing

and it’s so informative
what your lips have got to give
but you’ve got to jettison… something

it’s so informative
what your lips have got to give
but you’ve got to jettison… someone

here i am
drinking tea on the moon
counting backwards
dreaming of you
girl you know that you’re driving me crazy
but that glow is nothing short of amazing

here i am
drinking tea on the moon
counting backwards
dreaming of you
girl you know that you’re driving me crazy
but that glow is nothing short of amazing

06. Molly Molly

molly molly make love to me
beside the rinds in the sangria machine
we’ll do the two-stroke til the sky is red and green

molly molly make love to me
beneath the stars in the sangria machine
we’ll rock and roll until the galaxy is free

my grandpa worked just east of the buzy bee
at Damen, North, and Milwaukee
sorting souls with his bare hands using red cherries
oranges of orange, lemons yellow, and limes of green
matching up souls with destinies

molly molly make love to me
beneath the stars in the sangria machine
we’ll rock and roll until the galaxy is free

oh babe you’re the queen of the damned
and I’m your man- and fortuitously not
just cause the factors of ten
never left us a slot
but in a world of strings you know
the squares can get out of hand
so we’re ditching 12 for love in lunar land

molly molly make love to me
beneath the stars in the sangria machine
we’ll rock and roll until the galaxy is free

oh babe you’re the queen of the damned
and I’m your man
slingshot like a police cop on 21st and Grand
my grandpa was felled by a dentist drill in 1973
but not a day before
the solemn grounds in his coffee cup decreed

molly molly make love to me
beside the rinds in the sangria machine
we’ll do the two-stroke til the sky is red and green

molly molly make love to me
beneath the stars in the sangria machine
we’ll rock and roll until the galaxy is free

07. Simple Song

can you ever sing a simple song she intimated to me
give me for once simple circumstances and maybe we’ll see

but it’s not the world that’s falling
you’re falling away
it’s not the world

for some blokes words fall like rain
but for me it’s not the same

through box-kite windows you can spy
the boy with the microscope eyes
and he’s trying to dream of a soft world

and sleep becomes the only way
to forget about the function
and sleep becomes the only way
to focus on the wave

for some blokes words fall like rain
until the falling tune sounds like the best
and then the violence starts again

from the edge I pull back
I turn and hear bulldozers
but I’m still looking at you
my American woman
and these patriot kisses
long and deep like lies
but I’m still looking at you…
am I American?

08. First Time Caller

we could only get so far
through the glacial snows
our windshield wipers fell apart
quite some time ago

we kept fixing what kept breaking
but soon fell far behind
out of phase with beauty
cancellation blind

back in the day
you were the patron saint of AM radio
the tundra’s only source for real rock and roll
but then you decided to go
go.

we could only get so far
and it’s nobody’s fault but my own
tried to jackhammer to open a soft shell
and as soon as the double standards started to flow
the phone got thrown
and as soon as the midnight sun rose
saw me cracked and you alone

back in the day
you were the smoothest jock on KSNO
the tundra’s only source for real rock and roll
you left me because you needed to grow.

now I’m the scaredest of the scared
and I’m the coldest of the cold
straining through the static
on this cheap old radio
now you found another man
whose charm it made your belly grow
a whole new world of sizes
still the story goes

and now in the wee hours
if you listen across the snow
you can hear the distant crying
of a baby eskimo
a baby eskimo

09. Nobody Goes To Hell

you were scoundrel number one
and i hated you
nailed down in early life
you live you learn to sacrifice

but in flames you already lived
finding innocents
to do your dirty work for you
you had chances but no choices

nobody goes to hell
nobody goes to hell

you were scoundrel number one
but i loved you still
because the day you cried
i saw the little boy inside

well the shell tough as hell to protect you
it crushed you in the end
i’m trying to cull some lesson
i’m trying to find the friend

nobody goes to hell
(if it were anybody it’d be you)
nobody goes to hell

remember the girl that you dragged down
when you almost drowned?
well she’s probably not pissed anymore
cause she’s not here anymore

nobody goes to hell
(if it were anybody it’d be you)
nobody goes to hell

10. Darjeeling

it was absolutely treacherous
missing you by days
we were playing cat and mouse
in the most cosmic of ways

i almost got busted
for the drugs inside the sound
but your necklace with the shapes
was all they ever found

darjeeling- it’s not too tough to see
we’ve been spiraling towards each other
since the dawn of history
darjeeling

through all this space
through all this time
alive
through all these lives

after the inquisition
i was sure that you skipped town
but your apple in the starwood lounge
let me know you were around

gabriel was blowing hard
and the horsemen galloped loud
so we dusted off the locusts
and took off for the clouds

darjeeling- it’s not too tough to see
we’ve been spiraling towards each other
since the dawn of history
darjeeling

if you want to play a different game
well, then that’s the one we’ll choose- you’ll see
cause you’ve got the craft
and I got the keys

darjeeling- it’s not too tough to see
we’ve been spiraling towards each other
since the dawn of history
darjeeling

darjeeling- it’s not too tough to see
we’ve been spiraling towards each other
since the dawn of history
darjeeling

space voiceover: Madeleine LeMieux

11. Gush

im dreaming deep again
of beethoven’s sweetest wren
when i’m underwing the traffic melts outside

i’m trying to free myself
put this obsession on the shelf
i’m a little concerned about my mental health…

if i gushed and told you everything
would you stand up run like hell and hide from me?
it’s just these fears that i’ve got- realistic or not
they paralyze the heart of me, i know
go slow, i know, i know

wonderous normandie doll
i’m fixing tea to make you call
but that old black magic
doesn’t work at all

stare at you for an hour and a half
just have to swear to make you laugh
but you’re disappearing and not coming back anymore

if i gushed and told you everything
would you stand up run like hell and hide from me?
it’s just these fears that i’ve got- realistic or not
they paralyze the heart of me, i know
it’s a sad song but that’s how it goes

yellow fog is lifting
and we’re mellow waltzing
to the trash on the radio
and i’m fevered willing
i can feel you twisting
cascading through my code

if i gushed and told you everything
would you stand up run like hell and hide from me?
it’s just these fears that i’ve got- realistic or not
they paralyze the heart of me
i know…. go slow… i know i know

12. You Put Me Under

you put me under
diamonds in an arc above your eye
my soaking brow and the shortness of my breath betray me
revealing to the world I’m hypnotised

you put me under the gun
maybe it’s the sacred heart upon your chest
or my empty hands- the narcosis from this some of nothing
slipping me through to the other side

meet me on Mandlebrot street
where white stars caress the blue of morning time
meet me at destiny’s feet
the marble gods will watch us longingly

you put me under
your silloutete behind a silver jet
you’re taking off
and the wash of this new crush wake me
deliver me to futuretime…
and deliver me to futuretime…

Love Song for Kyrie Snow [2004]

01. so fucking hard
02. love song for kyrie snow
03. stronger than love
04. brutal
05. remix for kyrie snow

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01. so fucking hard

in your maddest of dashes
you left some things on board
an antique sewing machine
the plates from your long gone Ford
its a sad inventory
one im want to ignore
my least favourite of reminders
i dont have you anymore

i could make like i dont care
or i could play it cool
but its so fucking hard letting go of you

in my saddest of crashes
i woke up on the floor
in the moonroom of our apartment
sheets for doors
its a triple dark story
one im want to ignore
the travails of an ex-kokomite
who doesnt want you anymore

i could make like i dont care
or i could play it cool
but its so fucking hard letting go of you

put an ear to Ponchartrain
and close your eyes
he just might reveal to you the big easy surprise
dive deep for heavens sake
my favourite mothers daughter
hold your breath and you will spy
a diamond ring under the water

02. love song for kyrie snow

you were an elephant in your last life
you never cared if you made it home
you are illustrious and obnoxious
you earned a strand of the virgin
but she’s cautious

and i want you home
and i love you kyrie snow

was that you in New York?
was it you with me in Crescent City?
i cant remember
my imagination gets the best of me

you change eleven times to go bowling
but only twice when youre all alone
waiting for summer storms to absolve us
you earned the love of the saviour
but he’s nauseous

and i love you kyrie snow
and i dont care who knows

was that you in LA?
was it you with me in Sin City?
i cant remember
my imagination gets the best of me

03. stronger than love

hey baby… where have you gone?
i think of you when im driving
through rains like these
hey baby… you ran for the door
when you found that your fathers blue hat
wouldnt fit me anymore

i think you know what im thinking of
did you have to prove your secrets
were stronger than your love for me?

hey maybe… think we could settle the score?
but youd have to learn how to say im sorry
just a little bit more
hey baby… this is what they call open arms
but youll have to make this phone light up yeah
just a little bit

i think you know what im thinking of
did you have to prove your secrets
were stronger than your love for me?

i think you know what im dreaming of
but did you have to prove your secrets
were stronger than your love
i think i know what youre dreaming of
did you have to prove your secrets
were stronger than your love for me?

04. brutal

its brutal without you
i think of all the things we used to do
red wine and cigarettes
on the back porch in the rain
its brutal without you

wasnt it a clue to love
when i touched your heel at Joy Blue?
now i dont mind a bed three times my size
sometimes but most of the time i do

its brutal without you
i think of all the places you took me to
from the top of an empire
to the depths of Alcatraz
its brutal without you

wasnt it a clue to love
when you shoved me in the lake? its true
i dont mind a will six times my size sometimes

were we alls a losing hand
on the ghost train to Frankfort?
nine of your rings i lost in blue
were we alls a winning hand?
with all this light upon my heels
im still coming for you
im still coming for you

05. remix for kyrie snow

you were an elephant in your last life
you never cared if you made it home
you are illustrious and obnoxious
you earned a strand of the virgin
but shes cautious

and i want you home
and i love you kyrie snow

you change eleven times to go bowling
but only twice when youre all alone
waiting for summer storms to absolve us
you earned the love of the saviour
but hes nauseous

and i love you kyrie snow

remix: Felix Miklik

Roadstar [2001]

01 Ashland
02 Roadstar
03 Grow Crazy
04 Healing No. Four
05 Traci Seems
06 City Of Heroes
07 Diabetic
08 World’s Tallest Building
09 Tread
10 Snowangels
11 Roadstar [endsong]

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01. Ashland

city litter swirls making the skin of the invisible man
catching the glow off the ionosphere
still fighting the cold war
what else is a well-trained soldier to do
buried in the deep suburban towns?
come 30 he’s finally learning to read on the surface
instead of sweeping for mines

if i hit the lights just right ashland will be green all night
come circuit splendor
love comes hidden in friction

she found him dead in the brush in a puddle of wax
broken rib, swimmer’s ear, and a hell of a tan
she came on him with gifts in tow of
ice, isopropyl, and aloe
cradles him after the fall
with a grace she believes she’s got only in dream
stitches his wings by degrees
wipes the porridge away from her mouth with her sleeve
leans with purpose
gives him her lips divine

if you hit the lights just right ashland will be green all night
and all the past is somehow suddenly justified
if somehow it’s funneled up to this
ashland will be green all night
love comes hidden in friction

02. Roadstar

all this energy
opened up by you
satiate me deep

my robots go wild
metal arms once flailing
now have nothing to do
nothing to do but everything

03. Grow Crazy

love- so sick and sweet
go cry your eyes out
love- just like a cool chain on a hot day
go cry your eyes out

all your nightmares are totally real
but it’s still no fucking big deal
your gruesome death is just a formality
i met a green 19 typified what it means
to come on just a little too strong
she was great at sex but she never gave me subtext

light- turning tricks with heat
matter turns the blinds down on a japanese town
and life- faith and dissolve
yeah, get a map of the green and new land
from a manhattan newsstand

all your nightmares are totally real
but it’s still no fucking big deal
this fiery crash just precedes reality

grow crazy little flower
the sweetest one of all
rolling under moonlight isle
i’ll catch you if you fall

all your nightmares are totally real
but it’s still no fucking big deal
i met a green 19 typified what it means
to come on just a little too strong
she was great at sex but she never gave me subtext

04. Healing No. Four

things happen little chameleon
hold you harmless and indemnify
it’s a big surprise:
odd wounds from even burns gradually heal over
is it death has to die before death can take over?

penned down by a history whose spine i can’t define
attempting to bend a circle from a line
under the forest talk- seduce the curve
twice maching the solstice line
we belong to a different place

throwing pictures out of moving windows
can’t take the place of murder
like a new hairstyle can’t beat
the all-american suicide
and i’ve tried them all
you know it’s a godddamn lie
but still i love to say i’ve tried them all
i don’t know why

but where was i in the crooks of those pivotal times?

when young women ran from rapists with one shoe
in the middle of the night down south kedzie avenue?
when people needed a ride- where was i?
i may remain one of the larger crooks of those pivotal times
still i may remain

penned down by a history whose spine i can’t define
attempting to bend a circle from a line
under the forest talk- seducing curves
thrice maching the solstice line
we belong to a different place

and i’m poring over
all the things you never said
and all the things you’re never saying still
we belong to a better place
under the forest talk- seduce the curve
once maching the solstice line
we all get to the same place

05. Traci Seems

can’t smoke any more cigarettes
so I’m playing the synergistic effect
of stolen pills like little jets
and the promise of the motorcycle roar
across a foreign shore

traci seems like nothing’s changed
you’ve kept your act together
like a kitten in a microwave
the dark sons shine on you in verse
is it your destiny to run country to country heart jumping sun to sun
loving the barrel of a gun?

you’ve let neon take over
where your light once was
cause the media machine-gunned
all your confidence

having sex with space cadets
just to get your reflection wet
begging validation through
those one-fifth the worth of you

traci seems like nothing’s changed
you’ve kept your act together
like a kitten in a microwave
the dark sons shine on you in verse
is it your destiny to run country to country
heart jumping sun to sun
guessing the meaning of a swan?

06. City Of Heroes

so youve mastered the metaphor game
and now nothing on earth is the same
its only time but its critical its only time

like the movies you swim in your dreams
grin devoid of your critical fiends
when you wake up your roles been cast out
the old flicks back: the one thats built to lose
but its only time

when intelligence and lust turn to wisdom and love
youre on the escalator through the ether up above

when the white limos come out to play
and the license plates spell out the way
youll know its time its inevitable
you scare me girl like my worn-out seaside melody memory
you cant dodge the past like you cant dodge gravity
but you can learn to trick its spin its only time

and if you believe its all too good to be true…

schizophrenia heights is a commuter town
this life we used to chalk around til I felt your flower unfold
and I remember the silence, your arm clutching mine
the cress of soft belong up the escalator ride
through the ether to the dome
my synchronia…

but until that time
all static aside
when you hate the world do you still love me?

07. Diabetic

white papers strewn down hazel avenue
across manicured lawns
yellow school bus waves its red arm
here we have everything everything but the spark

the fire dissolves into mediocre pot
under sodium light in the brunswick parking lot

everyone loves chelsea
she always hits the vein
mommys real active on the deerfield PTA
her parents let the silent supper decide
that everything is just fine

a silver spoon with maple residue
destiny lies sometimes
grandparents fought for freedom just for fun
cause the liberty shes dying for
is to get fucked up at 21, yeah
a silver spoon maple residue
destiny lies in tracks no lexus car could ever hide

the choir resolves and then jumps in the lake
because candylands caught the bug that it couldnt shake

everyone loves chelsea
she always hits the vein
mommys real active on the northbrook PTA

her parents let the silent supper decide
that everything is just fine

08. World’s Tallest Building
(instrumental)

09. Tread

it was just like yesterday I remember when we
tooled down to the wharf to take that helicopter ride
as I fingered hearts into the spirals of your hand we watched
the last of the sealife forms crawl their way onto the sand

the bucketholders arrive!
from certain solitude comes balance fair
deep crankin seal cut jive on me
thats what you came here for
big easy surprise: postponed

it was the springtime of my purity
when every night was the end of the world
underneath that infant moon
the crush of the upper-worlds altitude christmas
coin by coin I cashed in the kingdom for my consciousness

the bucketholders arrive!
and killed the chess guru from planet 9
conquering at the same time all three plastic atmospheres
right before our eyes with love

Ill take you all the way Ill take you all the way
Ill take you all the way Ill take you all the way

the bucketholders arrive!
with seashells in the speakers and skatefish on the grill
by the time august arrives
well be safe at home

trumpet samples: W. Wadsworth Steffey

10. Snowangels

don’t mind the roadkill
with the spiral t.v. eyes
don’t worry baby
they’ve been dead for a long time
still i’d lock the doors

see back in the day
when holidays revolved round
cartoon characters
with a capitalist flair
that’s what kids became
tonight the clicking handles
sound just like the rain

scraps of standard oil
make a kind of new design
just slip in cassettes
when the AP reads all wrong
light a smoke and drive

listening to jazz
with the windshield wipers on
and it dawns on me

we’re just snowangels, baby
angels in the glow
it’s nuclear wintertime
and we’re snowangels

city limit signs
become a part of the sky
blur define serene
the gumball swirl behind us
celebrates our speed
but getting rolled, kid
really ain’t my kind of scene
red and blue lights in rearview
look like cool ice cream

doc that hancock signed
is a testament of time
don’t let light get lost
when the elements are gone
blinded by the right

this mosaic of chaos
this magnificent parade
they say that’s all the low bands
are good for nowadays
something in the carrier
sent them tumbling through the snow
searching through the white for gold

every mother knows
that the key to life thus goes:
elasticity

and we’re snowangels, baby
angels in the glow
it’s nuclear wintertime
and we’re snowangels

11. Roadstar [endsong]

all this energy
opened up by you
satiate me deep

my robots go wild
metal arms once flailing
now have nothing to do
nothing to do but everything

all this energy
opened up by you
i love you completely

Silver NItrate [1997]

01. Here I Am
02. Gavel
03. Breathing Underwater
04. Little Knives
05. Song For Black Elk
06. Nostalgia
07. Breakdown at Creation
08. Waterside

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01. Here I Am

can i have your attention before
the span is totally closed? …it’s so close
are you gonna do something about this?
just like the rest of your friends
that have the millennium bends
it’s harder to dream awake
harder than to sleep the day away

here i am- for all to enjoy
here i am- my name is spaceboy
here i am- society’s toy
here i am

if everybody knew everything
half the world would kill themselves
and the other half would just make love
just go up on the street on any shadowless afternoon
and look real hard
you can make out the tear

here i am- for girls and boys
here i am- my name is spaceboy

and i’ve been around
i was there the night the city ripped in two
and i’ve been around
i watched them burn up the cash in twenty-two
i woke up next to a forest full of words
i took one look and laughed all day

you are not your mind.
you are not your mind.
you are not your mind.

02. Gavel

i used to think i was immortal
until it threw me down
scraped knees and locked up for the rational sound

for 25 long years it kept me going round
i’d bring it up- and bring it back down
i used to think i was immortal
but now i know for sure

and if you say you gotta go- well
you know i’d never blame ya
but when faced with honest love you just run

gavel is your guillotine

you know i hate it when you swing that thing around
it scares the hell out of me
inverse- and fear driven- judgementality

it’s the theme for a dying star
what you think you are
it’s the theme for a dying star
what you really are

and when you said you had to go- well
you know i never blamed ya
bad things come in groups of one

gavel is your guillotine

03. Breathing Underwater

sarah is silent down on the southside
with a bold shock of redshift hair
watching the streetboys down on the corner
vomit white light into the air

off in the countryside
the christians wait to be alive
sarah takes the UFOs into her eyes

venus is barking up on the northside
glaring with her metric eyes
weighing everyone she sees
against some antique morality
with unconditional love

all the bitspeed in the world
ain’t gonna change the image of man
(not like a sound kiss can)
all the bandwidth in the world
ain’t gonna improve the image of man
(not like a sound kiss…)

off in the countryside
the christians still wait to be alive
but sarah slips right through the door into the sky

breathing underwater is an art like any other
breathing underwater is an art like any other
breathing underwater is an art like any other

04. Little Knives

i cry about the day one of us dies
searching for butterflies
in a dorm room with pornshop floors
i cry about the day one of us dies
at the hands of time
guessing sense out of the scars left in our sides

but still you laugh and still you lie
the raindrops fall like little knives

clouds roll over our town
and the water peels paint from the playground
palaces turn to rusted monkeybars
all kings are little boys
and invisible men live to smash their little toys
and the fortresses grow thick and tall

sometimes they catch us dreaming round
this dirty desert town
crazy’s just another word they have
to keep us same
to keep us down

but still you laugh and still you lie
the raindrops fall like little knives

the holy land is where you stand.

05. Song For Black Elk
(instrumental)

06. Nostalgia

I came because I had to know
now i’m flipping switches in the dashboard glow
see my blue face in the glass curve around
i float above the silent vine- pause for –
the way her waist bent just like time
then rocket past the point of exploitation
and east over the dateline

nostalgia ain’t what it used to be
still you wore it well…
you can’t wear it next to me

a kid so safe, naïve, and cool
democracy’s some word from school
i’m up here lonely as i’m strong
passing time on your dime

spinning dishes and smashing plates
are much more fun to watch from space
but no impressive bloodline is gonna
shake you loose, not this time
your cool idol grip just makes you blind
all the time

nostalgia
still you wear it well….

like something old, something new
something borrowed, something blue
shift something old to something new
something lifeless, tired, and true.

nostalgia ain’t what it used to be
and love ain’t what it ever was
and love ain’t what it ever was…

07. Breakdown at Creation

there are about a million ways to talk about the rain
and when you’re feeling wet i know
that you want to do it again now
of a million golden tongues licking from the sun
all of them will burn you baby- all of them
except for one

all equations breakdown at creation

je sais que la route est solitaire
je me suis laissé rattraper par les années
je sais qu’il y a deux sortes de mort
et qu’une n’est pas mauvaise
lorsque les miroirs disparaissent

all equations breakdown at creation

it’s been 6 months since i crept out past your angel face
through a fort of lithium and old lotto
they never thought their old miss
could ever shake like that
but that was then
and now is then

all equations breakdown at creation

08. Waterside

the old car in the driveway just jumped backwards twice
like the pull before any good renaissance
now love and hate are kissing in the backseat
as it flies on down the road

raised in the shadows of sluts and rebels
jenny diver kept her pearls away
from the drunkest casanova
and the bold crash city girls

an ill mind… the body of a dancer
leather the color of childhood
and a few other shades we never fully understand

and by the waterside she put my hands inside
and it was something gold that day
by the waterside
i might just have found something
real

like a butterfly suture on a timeline
the way we raped fate
water rushing through the pipeline
here are the big sky days

and by the waterside she showed me how to die
and it was something gold and i say:
you know it wasn’t half bad
i’m telling you now
you know it wasn’t half bad

Letters Never Sent [1995]

01. Deep Dark Secret
02. Capulet Grin
03. This April Evening
04. Just Another Girl
05. God Knows
06. Hey! Pretty Auburn

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01. Deep Dark Secret

you know i haven’t seen you for awhile
but in your absence how you still inspire
i’m going to tell you something
and i beg you don’t respond- no-
i don’t want to talk now.

see there are some things in this world
we pretend never happened
there are some things in this life we tend to
bend the truth about

i know your deep dark secret
yes that really really bad thing
you thought that you could hide
i know your deep dark secret

in my crooked way i care, i can’t lie
but i ask you not for water nor for sky
i don’t want to explain
let’s drop the subject now
i don’t want to talk now

see there are some things in this world
we pretend never happened
there are some things in this life we tend to
bend the truth about

how do i know?
well i look and it shows
what cues you choose to take defense
where no defense is needed
how do i know?
it shows right through your clothes
but it’s ok
i won’t tell a soul

yes there are some things in this world
and there are some things in this life

i know your deep dark secret
yes that really really bad thing
you thought that you were hiding well
i know your deep dark secret
i don’t mind.

02. Capulet Grin

so you want to know what real love is
so you want to understand
i’d love to show you girl what real love is
but i don’t know that i can

i ain’t cut out to wear no romeo clothing
darlin that just not in the plan
so won’t you get rid of that capulet grin now
don’t tug so heavy on my hand

i can’t be your superman

so you want to know what real love is
to put some blood back in your heart
i’d love to show you girl what real love is
but i don’t know where to start

my story’s nothin like a verona love song
no such sweet verses in my head
so won’t you get rid of that capulet grin now
and look at what you’ve got instead

i can’t be your superman

trumpet and trombone: Jim Berry
saxophones: John Paul Camp III

03. This April Evening

took it years to grow
took us time to petal out
fragrance full and something
watch you slip around
i’d die for the eyecandy of ya

sometimes i want to live forever
sometimes i wonder if maybe i’m dead
i’d give my kingdom for the flavour of the right kiss
i’d give my heart to save the treasured lips that sing this

and in the morning
we watch these flowers fall
i don’t want to ever be set free
this april evening
i’ll pull you behind the trees
and show you what you mean to me

gap ‘tween me and who i want to be keeps trenching out
crossing seconds
hole between you and me i want to flee keeps creeping
filled by either tears or blood or you

sometimes i want to live forever
sometimes i wonder if maybe i’m dead
i’d give my kingdom for the flavour of the right kiss
i’d give my heart to save the treasured lips that sing this

waitress pours the coffee
i dance out in the clouds
looking hoping waiting wanting
watch you slip around
i’d die for the eyecandy of ya
i’d die i’d die i’d die

my life is a triangle of love and sex and death
so spin it round
stuck between the fear of 6 and the love of 7
spin it round

and in the morning we’d watch these flowers fall
i don’t want to ever be set free
this april evening i’ll pull you behind the trees
and show you what you mean to me

and in the morning when we’d watch these flowers fall
i’d lose my head to some degree
this april evening i’ll pull you behind the trees
and show you what you mean to me

04. Just Another Girl

last night in a cold dream
you were just another girl to me

i’ve tasted electra’s red lips
in the solid blue light of the day
in a shopping mall
eyes like angels
and a phrase or two i never would say

i never could say what she was thinking
i never could. i never could.

last night in a cold dream
you were just another girl to me

your back can’t bend from the weight of the world
when you wear your halo on the inside
behold the brilliant flash
when 3 worlds collide

my servant indentured is easily censored
when the faceless clouds crowd up the sky
so you expand your collection
aid the resurrection
of the love, the guilt, and the lie

last night in a cold dream
every night in a cold dream
you were just another girl to me
you are just another girl to me

i think she’s finding someone else in me
i think she’s finding someone else

05. God Knows

twenty years ago today
the sky set forth an angel’s face
for the past twenty-four hours
i’ve been sketching you

on this day
hypocrisy comes screaming out
it grabs my neck
it slaps me across my face
i love you.

if i could throw our love up as a star
where not even i could mess it around
you know i would
if i could shape this stubborn heart of mine
to match your face
god knows i would

we see the holy in each other
we see the grace the beauty but not the real
but this world where we have to live is
so when the paris sun is smiling down on you
will you see my face in the clouds?
my god i’ll miss you
my god i miss you now

if i could throw our love up as a star
where not even i could mess it around
you know i would
if i could shape this stubborn heart of mine
to match your face
god knows i would

06. Hey! Pretty Auburn

hey! pretty auburn
look- open ears
this one goes out to one who loves but never hears

if you don’t need no one
then why do you keep me?
and why do we war when all the while
we just agree?

and so our love song becomes
“where is out love song?”
and so this train it ambles on

there’s someone in you i’ve never known
and this is the one i’m drawn to hold
if i could just find her

this metal lock box- your coat of arms
this code of silence:
your affection tripped alarm

and so our love song becomes
“where is out love song?”
and so this train it ambles on

this track gets ever old
this track gets ever old
this track goes
this track goes

Singles [2012-2014]

01. Diabla
02. Belfast
03. Scattering Platinum
04. Patanoir

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01. Diabla

i first saw you
legging around that red Darkroom
with eyes that made me redefine
the devil in the temporal mood

now i don’t mean to be rude
were you going for a change of attitude?
with two parts jet fuel and thermite perfume
110 stories of cruel

when the stars up in the sky
crash into the ocean
don’t think about the rules
just obey the motion
if there’s a war to be won
my god doesn’t need a gun

now I was hot on the heels
of passing you my soul
but you’re looking at me with longing
like a country that you want to control

that’s not how I roll
one of your pets at hotel Guantanamo
you’ll reap the seeds that you sow
you’ll reap what you sow

when the stars up in the sky
crash into the ocean
don’t think about the rules
just obey the motion
if there’s a war to be won
my god doesn’t need a gun

don’t you just love the new place?
civilians in government space…

when the stars up in the sky
crash into the ocean
don’t think about the rules
just obey the motion
if there’s a war to be won
my god doesn’t need a gun

sharon holle: background vocals

02. Belfast

two dead the past is never fair
regrets the quarter millionaire
you’re the mast and i’m the coast
i’m your johnny-one-note ghost

once i thought i’d lost it all
but really threw it away
once i thought i had it all
but i was born on the wrong day

spokes of a wheel roll past by
my water baby lullaby
five things missing from my soul
the things i do to fill the hole

once i thought i’d lost it all
but really threw it away
once i thought i had it all
but i was born on the wrong day

once i thought i’d lost it all
but really threw it away
once i knew i had it all
but i was born on the wrong day

imagination as my crutch
bones and matches
bring a burn to all i touch
and love
is just too much
it’s just too much
it’s just too much

once i thought i’d lost it all
but really threw it away
once i thought i had it all
but i was born on the wrong day

once i thought i’d lost it all
but really threw it away
once i knew i had it all
but i was born on the wrong day

03. Scattering Platinum

wet streets
blur of taxicabs
opening doors
I’m curbside
watching blue worlds pass me by

you’re a silkspun illusion
make no mistake tonight
you’re the ghost within my appetite

crash! crash!
if I’m manic take my autograph and
crash! crash!
if you seize I’ll roll you off your back

tiny dragons
jump up off of the floor
in my pocket
but there isn’t room for anymore

you’re a silkspun illusion
as your torrent downloads
i’ll be filling in the gaps with gold

crash! crash!
if I’m manic take my autograph and
crash! crash!
if you seize I’ll roll you off your back

and at twelve-stroke lock the doors
i’ll take you in the stacks
bliss in crimson rolling forward til the table cracks
and when our flaws fold inside out we’ll climb into the stormy night
scattering platinum
scattering platinum

crash! crash!
if I’m manic take my autograph and
crash! crash!
if you seize I’ll roll you off your back

04. Patanoir

recognize the darkened swirl
with a finger track it
veteran of the metaworlds
it’s time again to crack it

here you are
Patanoir

grab the wheel and hunker down
hear the scream within a scream
find the drop and dive on down
through the dream within a dream

roads lead to a different route
rocks may fall and knock you out
have a clue, give a shout
of Lisa’s last known whereabouts

here you are
Patanoir

grab the wheel and hunker down
hear the scream within a scream
find the drop and dive on down
through the dream within a dream

and learn how to work your cocoon
and soon the Butterfly Club welcomes you

grab the wheel and hunker down
hear the scream within a scream
find the drop and dive on down
then you’ve finally found your dream

sharon holle: backup vocals
tim koelling: saxophone

Unreleased [1987-1997]

01. 18 Wheels
02. 1000 Tears
03. Always
04. Ankh Earrings
05. Choice
07. Diva Hits The Bullseye
08. Dream Out Loud
09. Film Noir
10. FM Is deaf
11. January’s Last Day
12. Kiss To History
13. Little Ariadne
14. Margaret
15. Meadow Fiction
16. Naïveté Beats Sorrow
17. Now Her Name Is Roxy
18. One Man’s Treasure
19. Only One
20. Point of Dreaming
21. Ride
22. Seashell Song
23. Shakespeare’s Moon
24. The Smallest Thing
25. Sparkle
26. Vine

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01. 18 Wheels

the best place to do it is in a phonebooth by I-80’s side under shooting stars
singing songs into a trunk until it chirps back
until it send back silence
when the wind takes to the trees i know the world is mine

i count 5 rhymes in the circling weather over rome
think it’s a clue to the tones i’ve got to blow to bring you home
18 wheels roll by to the strains of aussie time
and there’s no box that i can build to bring it back

sleep means nothing to me anymore:
like somebody else’s ideas mean nothing
the passing of days
you and me were just looking for keys under a raging sea

you are the most vivid dream

i count five rhymes in the machine at the airport on the nile
think it’s a clue to the stops i’ve got to pull to make you smile again
18 wheels roll by
through the wires it’s finnish time
and there’s no box that i can build

the soft quick london ring
i thought would pipe you back to me
through a couple of funky loops drummed up at random
just kicked back
with moonlight flash
waiting patiently for us to sing in tandom

02. 1000 Tears

visions of her sidewinder perch
on the chair and up against the police car
throw light on my darkened face
flashes on a shadowed wall
like the lightning

a picture’s worth a thousand tears of want
oh the striking do know

although i’m just two feet away i might as well be paging through that magazine
with the way i’m pushed by 8×10 headlong into backlit gloss
rolling down the stairs like the thunder

i drop my keys and raise my glass to you
oh the striking do know

if i had a thousand lives to live outside of shy antiquity and frigid faceless apathy
i still wouldn’t have a clue

tell me what i need to do to get close to you

03. Always

where do you go when the sun’s gone away
and where do you hide from the rain?
what kind of games do you play with your mind
that drive you so damn insane?

you’ll always have me

don’t say that you can’t hold
you can’t touch me cause you can in a million ways
just remember the time we spent
sandra, don’t throw it away

your face never leaves my mind for a moment
it’s there every single day
i can see your eyes watching me
although they are four and one-half hundred miles away

you’ll always have me

where do you go when the sun goes away
and where do you hide from the rain?
what kind of games do you play with your mind
that drive you so damn insane?

you’ll always have me

04. Ankh Earrings

she stood about 5 foot 3 in these ankh earrings
her eyes impressed a thousand lives into mine
somehow i seem to know you somehow i seem to care

something’s buried deep behind these lines
but wit’s sharp knife’s too dull to dig
something’s set out right before our eyes but we’re all so blind
somehow you seem to know me
so won’t you go where the bold fear to tread- and show me?

do you sing the eternal song?
such lust is found in counterpoint’s wet pull
do you sing the eternal song?
and when your world crumbles, where do you run to? where do you run to?

through the rain of a thousand nightmares shine these ankh earrings
such a promise cannot be denied… falsified
and when the sky caves in and angels fall to obscene depths where passion stalls
i recline in the soft curves of the flowing arches
down the end then swallow hard come back again- in the end and then begin again

don’t look too hard- don’t follow me
these jewels bear your initials they weren’t meant for me
don’t think too hard- just cover me
and live your life in colors i can’t begin to see

do you sing the eternal song?
such lust is found in counterpoint’s wet pull
do you sing the eternal song?
and when your world crumbles, where do you run to? where do you run to?

it’s been 17 long years
since we danced in innocence’s garden
dancing without fear
over time you know these senses harden
and fade away…

05. Choice

it’s your choice to come around
it’s your choice

from the scraps of some fantasy
death comes to me in a three second scene
four arms around me
they like to tell me lies they like to send me selfish
not one to save me
well should i be surprised why am i so surprised

it’s your choice to come around
it’s your choice to come around

in exchange for my life eternal
you’ve given me your black heart
the one without eyes
the one i’ll break apart

don’t you remember what i told you
when i told you that i loved you? believe me…

behind the guise of the suburban sky is a kind thing
then i turn on my radio and hear the voice that’s screaming so
i try to find my way back home but something, something,
won’t let me go.

it’s your choice to come around
it’s your choice

06. Diva Hits The Bullseye

she’s a public vegetarian
with a Camus book and a nudie pen
on a greyhound that is fun to watch but clearly labeled nowhere

you are my 15 year patchouli headache
quoting crooked Kerouac

diva hits the bullseye

her mouth waters for the swirl of disco
and the hum of dimestore philosophy
in beret and scarf she heads on home

in her head she ponders love, war, sex
goddamn she’s killing me
in the time it takes to light a clove

you are my 15 year patchouli headache
quoting crooked Kerouac

07. Dream Out Loud

girl i love you
but i won’t let myself get near you
i remember when i tried it last i ruined everything
girl i love you but
we cannot take this train too fast
i’ve seen the silver rails turn razor rip right through this heart of mine

i’d go to sleep 1000 times
just to have one dream where i’m flying
i’d plunder through 1000 lives
just to find the courage to
dream out loud

i’m not the type to lie complacent in the framework
complacent with the millions worshipping the webstrong spinners
suspended in the sun

where is this magic well from which to draw such power?
the will to stitch by stitch together bridge
and climb into the clouds

i’d go to sleep 1000 times
just to have one dream where i’m flying
i’d plunder through 1000 lives
just to find the courage to
dream out loud

08. Film Noir

the color of the walden rain
always hit me as strange- just until recently
when i painted that picture i couldn’t accept the shades

now i try to make a happily-ever-after film
but got nobody to do the part but you- you’re gone
film noir

i’ve mailed you a chicago ticket
meet me at walden again, please
i’m sorry but it’s so much worse when you won’t
you won’t speak to me

09. FM Is deaf

i’d like to break my radio in half (FM is deaf)

do you remember when
it was safe to cruise the dial?
when there was something for everyone
no need to worry bout that new-age muzak
or getting fingers stuck in top 40 bubble-gum

it’s all changed
you don’t believe me flip it on and see
there’s pop spaghetti on that slippery dance floor
and politicians on your MTV

i’d like to break my radio in half (FM is deaf)

no need for talent here
all you need is a nice set of knockers and a neat little nose
if you can dance we can make you a millionaire
but you’ll have to wear all these magnetic clothes

it’s all changed
you don’t believe me flip it on and see
there’s no more steely dan
not much of rock ’round the clock
lest you consider the new dorks on the block

i’d like to break my radio in half (FM is deaf)

it’s all changed
you don’t believe me flip it on and see
it’s casey kasem and all this other jive
this multi-million metal 1,4, 5.

i’d like to break my radio in half (FM is deaf)

10. Hotel Maslow

i used to see her on the elevator sometimes
going up and down on her spring days (no she never stayed)
and this crazy life- this car and this broken room
all the lies i never listened to
yes, they fall from every mouth: from everyone but you

i’m finally flying now

don’t speak- language sometimes lies
feel! don’t think anymore
our thoughts are shaped in language
and language sometimes lies

speak only what you mean
you’re finally flying now

is it such a secret?
listen: the past is trying to eat the future
now is it such a secret?
you never understand our tongues anyway

and now it’s summer in crash city
and the age of two-tenths rule
she’s knee deep in water in a basement
punching buttons on a dead elevator

i’m finally flying now.

11. January’s Last Day

i asked her what to do with all this love
she said, ‘shove it into a mold shaped like a dinosaur’
it only made me love her more

just like everything else on january’s last day
just as strange and beautiful as six days’ prior holiday
very strange!

don’t you want to smash the TV and look out your own eyes
don’t you want to love at all and love et. al

i asked her what to do with all this lust
she said to paint a civilization’s face shaped like Rome
( and then she said to take her home)
and well she should have
well she should have

don’t you want to smash the TV and look out your own eyes
don’t you want to love at all and love et. al

smash the TV and look out your own eyes…

12. Little Ariadne

you live just safely north
this space we often curse
is the same space that saves us
you live just gently north
set apart from fires sending down the tender heart

and as i’m diving cross this forest let me hold your hand
dont let me fly into the sun
and as i’m running through this war please read my telegram
and tell me that it’s to be won

through no true spell but anger
though no true salve but love
we so amble on in the science of the senses
through no true trial but practice
with no true song to hold
we so crumble down and tumble in the folds

and as i dive across this forest let me hold your hand
dont let me fly into the sun
and as i’m crawling through this war please read my telegram
and tell me that it’s to be won

little ariadne won’t you come on home
in my saddest hour i sit alone
little ariadne i feel the walls close in
come and calm this sour wanton wispy din

13. Meadow Fiction

very nice
i just can’t say the words that push against my teeth and plague
but i know and you know
because it’s not too hard to see the things that make us wonder if we’ve ever lived at all
as you rest your hands on my sleeping head and fall back in song

why let modesty convince you from the truth under wet wet song
and i know that you know
because it’s not too hard to see the things that make us wonder who we live our short lives for
so we silently lie in our beautiful heads and our green imagination

we lie in the meadow fiction
we lie in the meadow fiction

14. Naïveté Beats Sorrow

you left your clothes here on purpose
just to remind me of what i do not have
i imagine, imagine, imagine you and whoever a million times
nothing can prepare me for the day it all turns real
and it surely will

see there are matters of the heart
and there are matters of the soul
oh but one of these ugly things just won’t let go

naïveté beats sorrow anyday

you left your heart behind on purpose- i know you did
just to remind me of what mine used to share
i remember, remember a time when you and i promised we’d never change
if the power were in my arms, i’d gladly rearrange, oh
yes, i surely would

see there are matters of the heart
and there are matters of the soul
oh but one of these ugly things just won’t let go

naïveté beats sorrow anyday

you left me here alone on purpose
you left me here alone on purpose

15. Now Her Name Is Roxy

dreams of children boast such things
mountains made of what they’ll be
but the plans of this one certain sarah
were they really these?

the truth it often stings
the truth it often stings

now her name is roxy, cause that’s what they want
tonight she’ll go and rip apart her head again
now her name is roxy, cause that’s what they want
so that’s what she wants now

did she plan to wake up naked in strange places?
did she always want to be the crying one inside the crowded bar?
on the anniversary of your violation
you dial your violator just to let him know
you’re way too weak to ever let it go
you’re way too weak to let it go

now her name is roxy, cause that’s what they want
tonight she’ll suck and blow apart her head again
now her name is roxy, cause that’s what they want

that’s what you get
that’s what you get
that’s the lesson that you forget
that’s what you get
that’s what you get, girl
the moon it cries for you
but that’s what she wants now

now you’re name is roxy
but what do you want?
that’s what I want to know
that’s what I want to know

16. One Man’s Treasure

since when can shadows cast a light
since when can’t words describe
the wonderful one i call my treasure

and taming emotions out of control
takes nothing more than i can’t give away
from the beginning i’ve been counting out the winnings
with the hurt so far away

one man’s treasure is all that he needs
to shine on him for life
it can’t die
it can’t be taken away

and taming emotions out of control
takes nothing more than i can’t give away
from the beginning i’ve been counting out the winnings
with the hurt so far away

17. Only One

from the 4 walls in which i sleep
i hear your voice calling
see you arms reaching out to me
but i can’t reach them

i need you to be with me
you’re the only one i love
please believe me
you’re the only only one

one by one the hearts around us break
we slowly watch them falling
there’s nothing they can take
nothing they want to

i need you to be with me
you’re the only one i love
please believe me
you’re my only only one

18. Point of Dreaming

what more can i say than i’m sorry
you’d probably want less for me to lie
can you tell me if there’s something more than memory
floating back between my eyes

oh the lightbulb starts to swing with the rhythm of my heart- the phone rings
when will i ever stop pretending
when you’ve got nothing you must realize that nothing can pull up the sun

what’s mine is mine and i’ve gotta draw the line somewhere
god knows- blood must run
just stop it with the lies and taste the beauty of the free skies
savour time

as the mist begins to fall a door closes down the hall- the rain sings
oh but i’d care not to listen
cause when dreams disappear like dust then what’s the point of dreaming
and when treasure turns to jagged rust then where’s the prize in feeling?

so tell me what ever happened to believe?
what ever happened to trust?
what ever happened to never let me go?
what ever happened to us?

what more can i say than i’m sorry
i know you’d want less for me to lie
but it’s worthless to water and shelter a flower sick

the lightbulb starts to swing with the rhythm of my heart- the phone rings
oh heaven help me stop defending
when you’ve got nothing you must realize that nothing can pull up the sun

so tell me what ever happend to believe
and what ever happened to trust
what ever happened to whatever you want i want?

19. Ride

the mountains where we live sport such steep sides
the river in the valley deep they’ve let it run bone-dry
who has let this come to pass?
what is this monster’s name and how can i survive?

out of all the things that you can say you’ve chosen this?
out of all the things that you can do you dig your deep abyss

hold on to the hands of time and gently ride
hold on…
ride

the circles where we live spin so fast
with a thousand looking eyes in one big looking glass
can you help me find a cave to hide?
can you stop and fashion up a quarter for the blind?
out of all the things that you can say you will never see
out of all the things that you can do you turn around and leave

hold on to the hands of time and gently ride
hold on…
ride

20. Seashell Song

sally’s analyst explains to her
that seashells aren’t the way to go
but how is he to know?
sally leaves her family with a briefcase in her hand
hoping that dear old dad will understand
but how was he to know?

there comes a time when every little boy and girl must wake up to the world
i think this time has come for you

the seashell stand is set up out there on the sunny beach
with the advice of her analyst just neatly out of reach
but what if he was true?

there comes a time when every little boy and girl must wake up to the world
i think this time has come for you

sally cruises down the bay with fancy boats and cars
now that her analyst is safely behind bars
but how was she to know?
so many people never really know
that growing up is so much more than simply getting old
but sally she well knows

there comes a time when every little boy and girl must wake up to the world
i think this time has come for you

21. Shakespeare’s Moon

hubris eats me alive
but only in the sunken stranger’s greenish eye
heaven truly knows thou art false as hell

shakespeare’s moon is my moon
for us to kiss under
or gift out lunacy- oh, on a fair night both

the circle in the sky that saw the inspirational apparition
was the one that watched the diner burn to the ground in 1956
same as under which
just last night i begged through tears
to let its glow wash your name away from my skin
benevolio walks before jesus
from bethlehem to stratford on avon

shakespeare’s moon serves refuge
to a lonely boy who’s drowning in his dreams
let him alone, let him alone, leave me alone
no go, no go

let the wine pour
let the water spill across your breast
the book of tomorrow sits away on its shelf- entirely unblessed
benevolio walks before jesus from bethlehem to stratford on avon

shakespeare’s moon is my moon
for us to kiss under
or gift out lunacy- oh, on a fair night both

22. The Smallest Thing

you can paint anybody insane on a bad day
blame it on a tight pair of genes if it makes the guilt go away
but you see- well what i really mean is

you can make any poor man pray his whole life away
yeah- cook him up a cherry pie in the sky
if it makes his pangs go away
but you see- well what i really mean is

the smallest thing to you
used to be the whole wide world to me
and yeah it used to bug me
but now i just slide around

you can kill your own brothers
just say it was god’s will
you could kill your own mother
just find a verse that’ll soak up the bloodspill
then take history and change it around
til it’s dignified- so disneyfied
cos white men don’t do bad things, now do they?
no i’m sure they never would

so what do i say oh scholarly one
when i’m woken up by indians- yes- in my bedroom?
so what do i say oh scholarly one to my black brother?

the smallest thing to you
yeah, it means the whole wide world to me
and yeah, I guess it bugs me
yeah it bugs me
that’s why I just slide around

23. Sparkle

closed are your eyes
storm cloud mirrors need to survive
close… the demise
in pools of static dematerializing

i can’t stand this atmosphere

body ever died
grounded tripole crucified
bits of my soul
pouring down in 1s and 0s

i can’t stand this atmosphere

sparkle the engine’s starry eye
sprinkle my ashes in the sky
i’m going back to where i’m wanted
nowhere… everywhere

untangled from the carnal vine
into the sea of nature’s sines
i’m going back to where i’m wanted

my heart for three odd years
bled like the dawn, i say
i came i saw… i ran away

so my eternity:
eat when you are hungry
and sleep when you are tired
goodbye

cos i scram this atmosphere
with a combat-booted flower-bearin’ angel on my grave

and my friends are so cool
cos they don’t move an arm
when i’m dancing under the last light waves
coming down from our long dead star
and my friends are so cool
cos they know who they are…

24. Vine

four leaves down the line
singing songs from six feet
shove me into your dark vacant head
my greatest weakness, my softest innocence
lies stabbed and bleeding on the floorboard creaking jealousy
these grapes are hardly sweet
and tender hardly fits your face

this world wasn’t built for me
(what queen can you catch now-
what queen to capture now, doll?)

but that’s life
living under bridges
that’s life
lunch with trolls makes me think i’ve never felt the sun before
four leaves down the line singing songs from six feet
shove me into your dark vacant head
my greatest weakness, my softest innocence

this world wasn’t built for me.